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I had some experiance of writing diary but i stopped writing it as i grow,and now i feel like want to start from the bottom again.This blog tells a story of my life.As i grow i had meet alot of people,alot of challenges and little success.I miss my father alot.I know he's watching me.Somewhere,better place than earth.But i really miss him.10 years since he left us.I cry every night thinking abt u appa.I had come a long way but still ur smell,ur touch,i still can feel them.I want u to know appa, i might not be a good son,i could not achieve ur dream,i fail to become a doctor.U want me to become a doctor but im so sorry appa.I cant.I fail.But trust me appa,one day i will definitely make u proud.As a father,u help me alot.U hit me but i know the reason.U want me to be the best guy.I fail!!!...Im so sorry appa.Every single night i cry thinking about all my failures.I cry thinking about u.I know i wouldnt have lose my battle if u still here.I know ur watching me.I still can sense ur existence.No matter where u are,i promise one day the world will know i had the greatest parents in the world.After u left us,amma work really hard.I want to her to live life a queen.I want amma stay happy.I will do everything for u amma.I promise.U are my world.Nothing else can beat that.No one can replace ur place in my heart amma.Nobody in this world will get amma like u.U teach me,u still suffer because of me amma.I want u to be happy forever amma.I will take care of u.Ur my world.I know im doing alot bad things,but i will get out of it.I promise amma.I promise amma.U will live like a queen.I will provide that life.It would be great if appa still here but you had done everything to makesure we had the best life.No mother can be like u.I love u so much amma.I really love u.Im not a good student but trust me amma, i will change my attitude and will fight for u amma.Thank you so much for everything amma.Ill take turn this time.Let me take care of u.....one more year!!.i will complete my studies.ill make sure u proud of ur effort amma.i love u amma.......love u more than anything amma...this life is only for u!!!